It's raining outside. I can't see the sky clearly. They're Grey.. and Blurry.. There's just too much drops. It makes me wanna crumble again to my goody old blanket and start sleeping again. Or I could just sip my Hot Choco delight. Mm.. sounds good.

I see the sky again one more time, and then I see this frame on my mind. A frame of an old sweet fuzzy memory. Once again it took me back.. And I glance my eyes to the windows and see the sky again one more time.



Have you ever had this feeling where you really want it but you know you can't. You just can't. I know for some of you who may reading this post might had the same story as mine.



I had heard people talking about "falling in love" on the Internet and I would laugh and shake my head in disbelief. How could you possibly fall in love with words? I now understand exactly how that can happen. We were MILEEEEEEEEESSSS apart and I don't think that we will ever be together in a physical sense. It started when a friend of mine went studying abroad and then he introduced him to me. At first It was like the normal 'hi & bye'. But then, It gotten more interesting we discuss things. A lot of things. We change our point of views and it just beautiful. It took me to a whole new dimension where I felt 'Wow..'

At first I only fell in love for his brain and the way he thinks. Coz, for me, BRAIN is the most sexiest part of all man kinds. And then we talk more.. more and more... and I fallen into a deeper dimesion. It was simply beautiful. No words can't describe my feelings.

He called me too, and it was like the sweetest thing ever. Ahh.. Does my heart skip a beat? So there I was, unsure of what to do.

I shake my head again. 'Okay time to back to reality Syaz..' I said to myself.

Still seeing the sky. And the words "If Only..." starts flowing on my mind.









xoxo,

Your Zoo

Nothing gets in my
way

Not even locked
doors

Don't follow the
lines

That been laid
before

I get along anyway

I care

Anyway, anyhow,
anywhere

-Anyway, anyhow, anywhere lyric by David Bowie

Nothing much could happen

Nothing we can't shake

Oh were absolute beginners

With nothing much at stake

As long as you're still smiling

There's nothing more I need

-Absolute Beginners lyric by David Bowie

Mum's Back.. From her envying (I have to say it!) trip. After two and a half weeks of dissonance without her , I realized that everything around the house wouldn't be the same without her loud annoying yet yearning voice (You know , I love u).

So anyway, she's back. I jumped my ass off out of the couch and went downstairs to give her usual teddy hug. She looked tired (I bet from the Sahara adventure) but she looked very happy and satisfied with her Trip too.

Syaz : So how was the trip Mum ? Was it fun ? Tell me all the details!
Mom : Italy & Dubai were a complete diffrent world. I had a really great time (and so, she continued her stories)
Syaz : Did you buy me something nice Mum ? Where's my Goody ! I want My Goody !(the usual habbit of mine)
Mom : I'm tired, Why don't we open it later. Okay ?
Syaz : (gone)

I went down to open up my Mum's luggage to find me some goodies. I messed all the things in that suitcase. I don't know why , everytime she travels she always buys weird stuff. Like went she went to Paris, Germany and Amsterdam she bought this full packs of diffrent condoms ! The Neons, fury ones, the weird flavoured ones. I cracked myself out went she told be that she bought all of those stuff. And when I asked her once, She simply said "Oh well, I kinda collect them you know". I know she doesn't collect them. But hell she's weird (But you know I LOVE YOU Mum)

I was so curious 'what is she gonna bring this time' I thought. That's funny.. I don't find anything weird this time. I found cool mask from Venice, the coolest glass mirror necklace, and stuff that are normally people would buy. Hmmmm, there should be 1 weird stuff at least... But this time I didn't find it.
But I did find a very cool CD. The cover was green and they put a huge 1963 on it. So I decided to put the CD into my player. The first track was by Bob Dylan - Girl From the North Country. The song give me the crumbly feeling of Bob Dylan. I adore him.
The song was like "If you go when the snowflakes storm, When the rivers freeze and summer ends, Please see she has a coat so warm, To keep her from the howlin' winds..."
I sat down on my favorite green couch and my imaginary runs wild. Suddenly I imagine myself in the summer surrounded with Oaks. And I thought about all the stuff in 1963. Once again my imaginary runs wild, President J.F Kennedy is assasinated, RCA Introduces the pocket TV, Kenya gains independence from Britain, Martin Luther King gives his "I have a Dream..." Speech. It's amazing how one song can enter a whole dimension of a mind.

I asked her about the CD and she said "It's the year I was born. I want some flashbacks, some records and taste when I was born"
She said they didn't have the 1991's. The Year stops at 1989, it's my sis' brith year. So she bought her one too.

I kept playing Bob Dylan's song.1963. There something special about this year. 1963.

I hate the fact that I have to admit that this guy who I wanna write right now is my ultimate long lost Prince. Hey, c'mon people, it's not funny. And I'm not being cheesy at all. For you out there who likes Korean Movie as I love my Chocolate fondue - should've known this calm, composed yet assertive face.

He's 다니엘 헤니 (guess what I don't read nor speak korean), Okay he's DANIEL HENNEY

Me and my Sister Marsha just watched one of his movie called 'Seducing Mr.Perfect'. Where he plays ofc the main character , yes.. Mr.Perfect himself ! I think the character itself resembled to his own personality and profile. He speaks 5 diffrent language , sings , went to college and got the basketball scholarship, plays piano , got the brain and knows the way how to play the game. No wonder he got the part.

Aaaaaaa,he's so hot! I wanna melt like a fondue

PS : I can't write this, you just gotta watch the movie yourself :3

xoxo,

Syazoo

A friend of mine told me that he saw my picture on one of Jakarta's urban magazine. The column was about fashion street look on Java Jazz. So, he scanned it for me and send it to my email. Can you guess which one am I ?

Hey everyone, it's been a long time huh ? I've been a really bad blogger, haven't I ? I know .. I know .. It's just that, everything I do is always according what my mood tells me. So here's my latest update since the last time I wrote (when was it again?) ..

1) I PASSED MY Royal Academy Dance Test ! Wooo-Hoooo ! For a lazy sluggard dancer like me, it was like 'OMG-I-CAN'T-BELIEVE-THIS'. It was quite an achievement.

Ms. Rina, my ballet teacher is one of the view people in my life who I always thought 'OMG IS SHE FOR REAL?'. She's an incredible dancer and extremely patient. Whenever I'm down, because of my lack of locomotion and my awful dance movement, she cheers me up and never got mad. Oneday she said "You know Syaza, when I was about your age, I'm the worst student in the class. I even can't bend my knees down like the other dancer does. I know you can do it. You have the perfect feet kid! Oh I wish I have those..!" and then, I smiled.

2) I GOT A SCHOLARSHIP TO KOREA AND I'M NOT EVEN DONE WITH MY SCHOOL YET

Okay, this one much much more freakier than the 1st one. It has a lot 'OMG-I-CAN'T-BELIEVE-THIS' factor.

You know, for a student in a prestigious moderate public school in Eastern Jakarta I'm nothing compare to the other students. I'm not the type who reads book, obey rules, suck up to the most killer teacher.. You know , that type. That's sooo not me. Well anyway, at the moment of my Englishlicious (it's a name of English competition in my school) the school held a career day. It's when lotsa Universities gather around and promote it to the 12th Grade Students. While I'm still waiting for my turn to get up on stage, I went around a little. And something just shook me. It's a Korean University. With a blinked mind, I went there and ask some info about it. It's kinda funny, the 12th grader should ask this kinda stuff not me. I'm just an 11th Grader. But it was astonishing when they said, even your not a 12th Grader, you still can have the scholarship test. So I decided to take the test for fun. And then ..... (I know you know the further story, I just spilled the details .. remember ?)

But here's a stupid, shocking, plainness taglines of my Interview

Mr.Lee : So, What do you love most about Korea ? What made you interested ?

Girl no.1 : The Techonology and their social and economic development ofcourse.. bla bla bla bla..

Girl no. 2 : The Technology and it's people and the culture.. Because bla bla bla bla

Syazoo : OH MY GOD ! I LOVE KOREAN MOVIE !! I don't know how they can make such a good movie every now and then, without seeing the trend of Western influences. Bi Rain is soooo hot! Oh lookie! He got a big part of making Korean developement! That's why I'm gonna take Multimedia, and Korea would be a good start for me.

The two girls were my seniors. They're in 12th Grd. And Guess what, I beat them! I still don't have a clue what Mr.Lee thinking that day. It was a plain, unplanned answer and quite dumb for a formal scholarship interview. Hahaha.. You see, If I read closely to my answers, I only can say it was 'OMG I CAN'T BELIVE I SAID THAT!'

xoxo

Syazoo

NO BALLET CLASS FOR TODAY :(

and the next 2 weeks

(IT'S KILLING ME)

which is sucks because it's my favorite routine in the whole week. And my dance movements still have to be corrected. And in January there will be an upgrading level test. Which means, I have to practice moreeeeeeeeee to get my level done.

So, anyway I decided to practice alone in my house. But it turned out to be so UGLY! I think I just made a new pose that could be the revolution of classical Ballet. This Ugly Pose is even Better than The Ordinary Sweet Nut Cracker. Quite embarassing. It took me a lot of gut to put it on my blog people ! so be nice people ! be nice !

I call this the 'Robotic Swan' Pose

xoxo

Zoo