Listening to : Biru by Dian Pramana Poetra & Syahrani
Wearing : Mom's Over sized Red Tee
Mood : Sleepy
Time : 9:52 pm (and guess what, I'm already sleepy. how lame..)

Mom text me she told me that she's already in Thailand. She didn't say anything this morning. I forgot that she's going to go to Thai today. So I didn't get the chance to say 'bye mom, have a nice trip'.
Mom.. hmm.. She's kinda awesome. She works hard. She plays hard. Although she's currently unemployed now. But I guess she's enjoying the life 'without the money' part. She loves doing the voluntary thing so much that she even sometimes forget how to do the normal things works around here. She loves adventure to the core! Have I mention this before ? I had my first bungee jump with her.

I once asked her , what if she never married my dad and what on earth will she be doing for the rest of her life. Her answer was a bit irritating "Well that's simple honey! I might be somewhere in the jungle or eastern Europe or Africa! Backpacking! Discovering new things. Mmm.. Or I might be searching a peace of mind on..bla bla... " and there she goes..
Now I know where I get my high expectation with a highly recomended imagination, LOL..

I don't have a certain reason to write this post, actually its a bit random yeah? discussing mom? on 10pm ? totally random. Oh well.
rrrrr..... my late night inner monsterious is almost out peeps. Gotta go... and sleep.


xoxo,
zoo

Me currently in love with Salvador Dali

Me currently been longing to see me old friends

Me currently singing that's what you get by paramore

Me currently alone in the house

Me currently imagining what the future will bring

Me currently feeeeeelin WHITE

An unrealistically handsome, so cool its
painful, unbelievably sexy-haired man who is the lead singer of the genius band
called The Strokes. Also has especially hot voice, and the sexiest laugh ever. There is nothing hotter

It's JULIAN CASABLANCAS

He was born on August 23, 1978 in New York City

(who cares if he's 30 ! with a guy like him ? okay, he's definitely mine)
His father, John, is founder of the Elite Modelling Agency

(he's already sick of models that's why he wants me)
He currently in New York City

(aah, my future city)

He reportedly learned how music "works" while listening to a tape of The Doors

(it's called inspiration)
He is Spanish and Danish

(what a perfect mix! imagine our baby's gonna be half Indonesian)

Highly cool and unconventially attractive, his real magnestism lies in the droll way he carries himself and holds the mike

Julian is by far one of the sexiest perfomers of there, if not the most. Julian Casablancas is my lover. Yeah, you heard me. Back off!

xoxo,

Zoo

My big sister (CITRA) just left for Japan again. This time no tears involved in the Airport (which is good). Her flight was 9:40 pm. And she's taking Korean Air. She said that, that's the best price that she could get with the convenience.

Syaz : Why don't you take China Air Instead ? It's like the cheapest one ever right ?
Cit : Euuuwwh! Less money doesn't always to be less quality and hygene....
Syaz : Huh ?
Cit : Don't you know, in China Air they have this spit thing in every corner of the plane. Even the flight stewardess spit on it too!
Syaz : WTF ?!..
Cit : The stewardess are mean too! They're like chinese mean girls on plane. And Oh! the passanger..! They smell.. they have this smell. This awkward smell. Like so euwh..
Syaz : HAHA.. what is it ?
Cit : Maybe it's because they're chinese.... So they SMELL...
Syaz : HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.............
Cit : No , I'm kidding, That would be mean. HeeHee. It would be because of the spits.......
Syaz & Cit : (silence-- and looking at each other.. and laugh again.) HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA..
Syaz : So anyway sis, glad u're not on board on China Air. Have a pleasant flight!..

and while i'm continuing my words, theres a bunch of stewardess which I think they look like blue poodles with a really big ribbon on their neck which is disturbing me, cus it reminds me of suicide.

Cit : (looking over those blue poodles) Ah! that would be my flight. It's Korean Air.

Syaz : Ahh ? ...

Cit : Whaaaat ? Don't stare at them like that

Syaza : ..(SMILED).. HAVE WONDERFUL FLIGHT SIS !!!!

and then, I hugged her.

and I miss her already.

xoxo,

Zoo

Happiness.. what will you say if I tell you to describe this simple one word. "Happiness". What will you say ?..

They say..

"Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is
the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and
gratitude" - Denis Waitley

"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness
consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life" -
Albert Camus

"When we feel love and kindness toward others, it not only makes others feel loved and cared for, but it helps us also to develop inner happiness and peace" - Dalai lama

"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved" - George Sand

So again.. What will you say ?

After a nice sip of Tea , I decided to browse some DVDs of mine that I haven't watch yet. So.. I did found some of my Korean Movies ( You know I'm such a Korean whore ). I went downstairs and played the movie without seeing the cover first. The Movie called 'Beyond All Magic' aka Black Heart. I thought the movie gonna be like my most likely Korean Movies. Chick Flicks , Romantic Comedy or Horrors. So , I was wrong. It was mm.. Romantic Drama ? err... No.. Drama Comedy ? err.. not even close.. Well, you know those movie that makes you feel bored in the middle and makes you smile at the end ? Yeah.. Sort of like that.

So, the story is about.. A 38-year old Nam-hee who sells fruit and struggle with her life. And she's living with her Mother who thinks she's still a teenager (ill with Alzheimer’s). And not long after that, her senseless daughter who only dreams of becoming an anchorwoman came to her house and decided to live with her too. One day, Joon, a mysterious guy appears to these three eccentric womens. He just pops out of no where. And Nam-hee who got tired of living feels at peace and her heart flutters for the first time through Joon. And when her Daughter, Na-rae senses it, she is confused and gets jealous of mother’s love, but finally realizes that mom is also a woman.... Thanks to Joon, the love messenger, they become slowly aware of true meaning of love, life and a family. And at the end of the Movie you'll know who's Joon is. I'm in love with Joon's character <3

I'm not trying to be cliche here. But Happiness only pops out when you least expected.

xoxo,

Zoo

Listening to : Gymnopedie 1(Lent ent douloureux)
Mood : floating

I closed my eyes..
It got me to the start.
I went to this tunnel. A dark one. But it wasn't dreaded at all.
Step by step.. hushh.. mm..
Feeling every detail of it.. husshes..
Still Dark.
I stand on my tiptoe.
Every detail.
I was dancing in the dark.
And melted...................




xoxo,

zoo

It's raining outside. I can't see the sky clearly. They're Grey.. and Blurry.. There's just too much drops. It makes me wanna crumble again to my goody old blanket and start sleeping again. Or I could just sip my Hot Choco delight. Mm.. sounds good.

I see the sky again one more time, and then I see this frame on my mind. A frame of an old sweet fuzzy memory. Once again it took me back.. And I glance my eyes to the windows and see the sky again one more time.



Have you ever had this feeling where you really want it but you know you can't. You just can't. I know for some of you who may reading this post might had the same story as mine.



I had heard people talking about "falling in love" on the Internet and I would laugh and shake my head in disbelief. How could you possibly fall in love with words? I now understand exactly how that can happen. We were MILEEEEEEEEESSSS apart and I don't think that we will ever be together in a physical sense. It started when a friend of mine went studying abroad and then he introduced him to me. At first It was like the normal 'hi & bye'. But then, It gotten more interesting we discuss things. A lot of things. We change our point of views and it just beautiful. It took me to a whole new dimension where I felt 'Wow..'

At first I only fell in love for his brain and the way he thinks. Coz, for me, BRAIN is the most sexiest part of all man kinds. And then we talk more.. more and more... and I fallen into a deeper dimesion. It was simply beautiful. No words can't describe my feelings.

He called me too, and it was like the sweetest thing ever. Ahh.. Does my heart skip a beat? So there I was, unsure of what to do.

I shake my head again. 'Okay time to back to reality Syaz..' I said to myself.

Still seeing the sky. And the words "If Only..." starts flowing on my mind.









xoxo,

Your Zoo