It's raining outside. I can't see the sky clearly. They're Grey.. and Blurry.. There's just too much drops. It makes me wanna crumble again to my goody old blanket and start sleeping again. Or I could just sip my Hot Choco delight. Mm.. sounds good.

I see the sky again one more time, and then I see this frame on my mind. A frame of an old sweet fuzzy memory. Once again it took me back.. And I glance my eyes to the windows and see the sky again one more time.



Have you ever had this feeling where you really want it but you know you can't. You just can't. I know for some of you who may reading this post might had the same story as mine.



I had heard people talking about "falling in love" on the Internet and I would laugh and shake my head in disbelief. How could you possibly fall in love with words? I now understand exactly how that can happen. We were MILEEEEEEEEESSSS apart and I don't think that we will ever be together in a physical sense. It started when a friend of mine went studying abroad and then he introduced him to me. At first It was like the normal 'hi & bye'. But then, It gotten more interesting we discuss things. A lot of things. We change our point of views and it just beautiful. It took me to a whole new dimension where I felt 'Wow..'

At first I only fell in love for his brain and the way he thinks. Coz, for me, BRAIN is the most sexiest part of all man kinds. And then we talk more.. more and more... and I fallen into a deeper dimesion. It was simply beautiful. No words can't describe my feelings.

He called me too, and it was like the sweetest thing ever. Ahh.. Does my heart skip a beat? So there I was, unsure of what to do.

I shake my head again. 'Okay time to back to reality Syaz..' I said to myself.

Still seeing the sky. And the words "If Only..." starts flowing on my mind.









xoxo,

Your Zoo

Nothing gets in my
way

Not even locked
doors

Don't follow the
lines

That been laid
before

I get along anyway

I care

Anyway, anyhow,
anywhere

-Anyway, anyhow, anywhere lyric by David Bowie

Nothing much could happen

Nothing we can't shake

Oh were absolute beginners

With nothing much at stake

As long as you're still smiling

There's nothing more I need

-Absolute Beginners lyric by David Bowie

Mum's Back.. From her envying (I have to say it!) trip. After two and a half weeks of dissonance without her , I realized that everything around the house wouldn't be the same without her loud annoying yet yearning voice (You know , I love u).

So anyway, she's back. I jumped my ass off out of the couch and went downstairs to give her usual teddy hug. She looked tired (I bet from the Sahara adventure) but she looked very happy and satisfied with her Trip too.

Syaz : So how was the trip Mum ? Was it fun ? Tell me all the details!
Mom : Italy & Dubai were a complete diffrent world. I had a really great time (and so, she continued her stories)
Syaz : Did you buy me something nice Mum ? Where's my Goody ! I want My Goody !(the usual habbit of mine)
Mom : I'm tired, Why don't we open it later. Okay ?
Syaz : (gone)

I went down to open up my Mum's luggage to find me some goodies. I messed all the things in that suitcase. I don't know why , everytime she travels she always buys weird stuff. Like went she went to Paris, Germany and Amsterdam she bought this full packs of diffrent condoms ! The Neons, fury ones, the weird flavoured ones. I cracked myself out went she told be that she bought all of those stuff. And when I asked her once, She simply said "Oh well, I kinda collect them you know". I know she doesn't collect them. But hell she's weird (But you know I LOVE YOU Mum)

I was so curious 'what is she gonna bring this time' I thought. That's funny.. I don't find anything weird this time. I found cool mask from Venice, the coolest glass mirror necklace, and stuff that are normally people would buy. Hmmmm, there should be 1 weird stuff at least... But this time I didn't find it.
But I did find a very cool CD. The cover was green and they put a huge 1963 on it. So I decided to put the CD into my player. The first track was by Bob Dylan - Girl From the North Country. The song give me the crumbly feeling of Bob Dylan. I adore him.
The song was like "If you go when the snowflakes storm, When the rivers freeze and summer ends, Please see she has a coat so warm, To keep her from the howlin' winds..."
I sat down on my favorite green couch and my imaginary runs wild. Suddenly I imagine myself in the summer surrounded with Oaks. And I thought about all the stuff in 1963. Once again my imaginary runs wild, President J.F Kennedy is assasinated, RCA Introduces the pocket TV, Kenya gains independence from Britain, Martin Luther King gives his "I have a Dream..." Speech. It's amazing how one song can enter a whole dimension of a mind.

I asked her about the CD and she said "It's the year I was born. I want some flashbacks, some records and taste when I was born"
She said they didn't have the 1991's. The Year stops at 1989, it's my sis' brith year. So she bought her one too.

I kept playing Bob Dylan's song.1963. There something special about this year. 1963.